Army done and 8 month anniversary ♡

So as you can tell from the title, my boyfriends army is now finally over, 255/255 days ✌ It's been really tough at times since the whole time we've been dating he has been in the army and sometimes there's been times when we've seen each other for like 3-6 days a month...sometimes 10 days straight without even talking but now it's finally over and we can start to live like "normal" life 👌

On the other hand the next 8 months won't be that much easier since he is starting his studies tomorrow and I'm studying to get to the med school as you may know and like I've said before, it's extremely hard to get into med school in Finland.... But I'm sure we will manage because we love each other and want to be together. That's all that really matters at the end of the day ❤ Can't wait to start this new "chapter" with him 💋

We'll be also celebrating our 8 month anniversary together tomorrow and I'm excited since there's actually only been one "month-anniversary" that we've got to be together (the 6 month, thank God). I don't yet know what we are gonna do after he gets out from school but I'm sure we'll figure it out then 🙈

I hope you all have a great day and I'll see you in my next post 💋

(P.s. I know my posts are normally pretty short and I apologize that, I would love to hear ideas from you guys about what should I talk about etc)

- KK

Age crisis 😅

It's now been a week since I turned 19 (22/8) and I honestly don't know what to think about that 😅 I'm kinda having like an age crisis tbh. I feel like I just turned 18 and now I'm already a year older... And no 19 isn't old but I just feel like now each year I should be more adult-like etc and I'm NOT ready 🙈

I just graduated from high school and now this year, like I've already said earlier, I'm studying so that maybe I would get into med school someday (fingers crossed 🙈). I still live at home and will be living here at least until I get into a university so right now it just feels like my life is kinda standing still. I'm not going anywhere, turning 19 didn't bring anything new into my life and I'm still learning to become an adult and do adult kinda stuff while still holding on to my last year of being a teenager 🙈😢

Becoming an adult (or well turning 18 and after that) isn't that easy. It's like someone taking your training wheels off without your permission and all of a sudden you're supposed to make the important phone calls yourself, handle your bank account things and making all kinds of decisions all by yourself. I mean don't get me wrong I like being able to do stuff myself too like for example driving a car but before you turn 18, you have no Idea of all the responsibilities and duties the life is about to throw at you. So yes sometimes I do think about how easy life would be if I was still like a 5-year-old or sth but then again I'm happy and grateful about all the things and experiences I've had in these past 19 years. They have made me who I am today.

- KK

Pray for Barcelona 🇪🇸

This was not a good night... When I heard that one of my favourite cities had been attacked, I was shocked, devastated and confused at the same time. What made this all even more weird was that I had actually earlier today watched some CNN's etc's documents about these terrorists from youtube. Like what makes them do things like this, about the women there, the child recruits and so on. I'm stunned how many people still join them every year from Europe, USA, Australia etc and how easily their are brainwashed into their system.

I'm really sad that the world we live in, has to be this scary, so unpredictable and unsafe. It obviously makes me scared even tho you shouldn't let power to the fear because that's exactly what the terrorists want. All these attacks have been brutal, horrible and unforgivable but at the same time it's the fear and the anxiety that makes us even more vulnerable.

Now when it comes to the Barcelona's attack, I'm not trying to blame anyone else but the terrorists of this attack, but how is it possible that La Rambla which is a big, wide road for walkers didn't have any protection? Like those big stone fences or anything. It was just a matter of time for this to happen since these kind of attacks (truck/van) have been going on in Europe and also because La Rambla is like the perfect target for it because it's always full of people. The van got to drive for over half a kilometer before stopping because there's nothing that would've stopped it.
But like I said, it's ofc the terrorist's fault that this even happened in the first place.

UPDATE: there was also another terrorist attack later last night... Audi A3 drove to the crowd in Cabrils... 6 civils got injured and one police. Police shot 4 suspects and injured one, who died later from his injuries. Police also said that the suspects had bomb vests on them...

This is absolutely terrible and devastating... I hope that all the injured people get better soon and everyone who needs any kind of help gets it.

I just want to send my condolences for all the victims' loved ones and for Barcelona ❤ We love you and support you ❤🇪🇸

- KK

(Pic's source: ://www.hola.com/actualidad/2017081798302/redes-sociales-pray-for-barcelona/ )

Copenhagen 🇩🇰

So I went on a weekend trip with my family last weekend to Copenhagen 🇩🇰 I've always wanted to visit Denmark but I guess I expected too much. I mean don't get me wrong, Copenhagen was beautiful with all its old buildings, the little mermaid statue, Nyhavn and Tivoli but all the streets were under construction because they are building a metro there.

Also, what's with the driving? Everyone was driving like in Middle East or sth...no one used the blinker, they just hunked and showed with the hand to go first. It was scary. And then the bikes... Everyone were riding their bikes, without a helmet btw, and you had to be careful not to get hit. The bikers had better roads than the walkers... It also isn't that beautiful when all streets are full of parked bikes so you barely have space to walk on the sidewalks. I mean yes it's better for the environment but still, I'm happy that I don't have to live there.

Besides all these things it was still worth visiting for and I had a fun trip even tho I got sick on the second day...thanks to my sister. I loved the Nyhavn harbor and the Field's (Scandinavia's biggest mall) wasn't that bad either even tho I don't really like shopping 🙈

I thinl that's all I have for you today 😜 now some pics 💋

- KK

Where did the summer go?

Okay, so yes I do realise it's been too long since my last post but this time I've really been busy 🙈 I feel like the June just flew by, like it lasted only 2 weeks.

I had my Chilean host sister here and I feel like I had sth pretty much everyday. We went to Helsinki center, to Suomenlinna (an old military island in front of Helsinki), to Heureka (science place with exhibitions, fun gadgets, planetarium etc), to my mom's uncle's summer cottage (went swimming to the lake, was just +18°C 😅), to Porvoo (a city about 45min drive from Helsinki, also where my bae is from ♡), to Stockholm Sweden etc . So for a girl who is an introvert, who loves being alone and just chilling at home instead of going out to bars or well anywhere especially in the evenings (yes, we do exist), it was quite a challenge. I feel like I've really gotten the fear of social situations... I'm like the black sheep of the family aince my parents and sister are like super social and out going 🙈.

What also really sucked was the poor weather we had... We've had so bad summers now for the 2 or 3 summers in a row. Last week was the best but even then the temperature didn't rise above like +24°C and it's just been raining a lot 👎. Today was a pretty good weather when I was in Helsinki with my friend but tmrw it will rain again... The global warming is really a thing and we should really do our best to even slow it down.

So what's been going on in my love life? Well, things are pretty good but my boyfriend actually now has pneumonia...and I'm just hoping that I won't get it since I've spent 2 nights with him during this time and as a kissing addict I've ofc also kissed him 💋🙈. So now, fingers crossed 😅 he now has the antibiotics so hopefully his pneumonia won't be contagious anymore since I would ofc really want to spend time with him more now while he has the permission to be away from army.

I think that's pretty much what's been happening in my life recently. Now just chilling the for a couple of weeks before starting the journey of studying to med school..😅🙈 it's so weird that for the first time in 12 years I DON'T have to go to school next week ♡👍

See you next time 😉

Also don't forget to follow me on instagram @katjusa1 💋

- KK

Jag älskar dig ♡

I wasn't sure if I was gonna write a post about my relationship again since I'm not the kinda person who likes to shove it into peoples faces but I mean it's a huge part of my life right now so oh well, here we go again 😜.

It's now been about 5 months since the last relationship post which means that it's gonna be our 6 month anniversary soon (on Friday, 14th of July to be exact). It's like a weird but exciting thing at least for me since I've never dated anyone for this long 🙈.

I'm actually talking with him as I'm writing this 🙈 It's 1.15am and I just took a nap before 12am so I could stay awake and keep him company while he has his guard-shift (00.00-03.00). I feel like it's the least I can do when I'm just on a holiday and he has to be there. 65 long days left but I mean we've already been thru 190 days so can't complain 😅🙈

Besides all the struggles and challenges that the army throws at us, we are doing good ❤ I can't even describe how much I love this guy, I've never felt this way before 🙈. He just simply makes me happy and I feel so loved. Not even an hour goes by without him calling me beautiful when we are together 💋 Like I said in my previous post, it's hard for me to take compliments even from him but I still appreciate it and cherish the moment when he says the words with a smile on his face and twinkling eyes 💫

I know it's still pretty naive to say after only 6 months but I really do think that I've found my future ♡ My boyfriend changed my life completely and there's no place I'd rather be than in his arms ♡ It's so weird tho, like who knew I might have found my "the one" from Tinder 🙈 It just seems so unreal, but at the same time so amazing. I feel blessed, and if this is how it's always gonna feel, I don't ever wanna let him go ♡

- KK

Our society needs a slap on its face.

Let's just say it out loud: it's not easy to be a girl. I have almost 19 years of experience but I'm still constantly struggling. Okay, maybe struggling was a bit harsh word but I'm sure you get it.

Our society thinks that boys and girls don't come as equals. And before going further I wanna point out that no I'm not a big feminist, I don't want girls to be better than boys, I just want us to be equal.

For example boys are expected to be strong, to not show too much emotions, to be better at many things while the girls are just expected to be loving, caring and not as good as boys in many ways. I mean cmoon, why does "throw/run like a girl" have to be a bad thing? Why is it always sth to do with girls that is expected to be worse? It's fucked up. My sister once was talking about sth about how there's some things boys do better, and you know what my mom told her? She said "The only thing boys can do better than girls is peeing while standing", and my mother is totally right. Yes, there are things that might be easier for guys, for example climbing latters bc girl's pelvis's structure is different (so that they can walk well and be balanced even with a big pregnancy belly), but there's no thing that guys "just do better naturally". That's what we have to tell our daughters and their daughters. You can do anything if you just set your mind to it and work hard for it.

But what I think is one of the most fucked up thing in our society is that girls are constantly body-shamed, we are taught that only being skinny is pretty. The internet is full of new trends like can you fit your waist inside your hands, do you have a thigh-gap, how much are your collarbones showing... When is this gonna stop? I'm afraid never... I'm not saying that you should or shouldn't be skinny, but when will we change it into "being healthy no matter what size you are is pretty"?

Fat-shaming has become a real thing and it's not right. And yes ofc there are people who also shame skinny people but fat-shaming has become more popular thing in our society. Okay, maybe you have some extra pounds on your hips and waist, but when did it become acceptable for skinnier people to crush the little bit of self-esteem the other one has left? If you mock someone bigger at the gym, it's the same as if you mocked an anorexic for eating. The people are at the gym to change their lifestyle, to lose some weight. It's absolutely insane how mean people can be to one another, especially girls.

Nowadays even younger girls (also some boys) are getting an eating-disorder because all the ads, magazines, tv-shows etc show us how we should look like even tho most of the time even the models are photoshopped. Is that really the model we want to pass on to our daughters? I don't know about you but I know I don't. I'm gonna do everything  to make my children love them for who they are and what they look like. We are all beautiful in our own unique way and that's how it's supposed to be. That's how we were created.

Parents have a huge impact on their children's self-esteem and body-image, but unfortunately the society can sometimes mess it all up. 

I myself have experienced bullying etc bc of my weight which is why my self-esteem is pretty low. I act all tough and confident around people I don't know, but that's just my cover. It's usually hard for me to take compliments, even from my own boyfriend and I can see how it makes him sad... Now you are prob thinking like ohh yeah now I know why she is writing about fat-shaming, she just wants to make herself feel better. No, I actually just want other low self-esteem girls to feel that they are beautiful, that they are good enough and it's upto them if they will let others bring them down. The power is in everyone's own hands, sometimes it just takes time for us to learn how to use it.

I don't know if I'll ever be satisfied with my own body but well in todays society, who is? Tho if you are, good for you, I'm really happy for you 😊

Like I said, I'm not a big feminist but here's a pic that shows the great things women can do 😉

- KK

Trattoria Sogno ♡

Today we went to a restaurant called Trattoria Sogno to celebrate the fact that my sister got into university (5th best score even tho the exam was super hard because they changed it completely this yr! #SoProud ❤). The restaurant is in Töölö in Helsinki and it's an Italian restaurant as you could prob guess from the name.

The atmosphere was nice and cosy, nothing too fancy. The staff was really nice and helpful and didn't take too long to get food. The food was really good 👌♡ I had grilled octopus with rubarb cucumber for starters, grilled lamb with rucola-risotto and pea-rucola salad for main course (you first choose the meat and then choose side dishes, my side dishes were the risotto and salad) and tiramisu and latte for dessert. The price-quality level was really good, none of the dishes were super expencive 👌

So all in all it was a really pleasant surprise and I'm definetly gonna go there again sometime. Have nothing to complain about. I mean even the bathroom was cosy and pretty big, which is always a nice thing about public restrooms 😜.

5/5 experience✌

- KK

HOLIDAY!

Long tim no see, as always 😅 Been busy with work but today it FINALLY ended! ❤ Don't get me wrong, it wasn't that bad and the people were super nice but I just really need a holiday since I didn't even get one last summer bc I had to study for finals...

Now I have like 2-2,5 months of freedom before I start to study for next May's Med School exam 😅🙈 yes it is so hard to get in that you really need to study for like 10 months and go to courses etc....

But now I'm just gonna think about my holiday and focus on relaxing. I can't wait for next weeks Thursday bc I finally get to see my Chilean host sister again after 3 years 🙈❤ Gonna have so much fun with her during the 3,5 weeks she's gonna be here. Just hoping for some good weather since it has sucked pretty much the whole June...for example today and tomorrow we have like a storm...it's super windy, some people don't have electricity atm bc of some trees that have fallen on the electricity wires etc...just hoping for the best, fingers crossed 🙈😅

Anyway, I'm really going to write more now when I really have the time for it but we'll see, I've never really succeeded with this plan 😅😂

Hope you all have a great weekend ❤

- KK

Samsung, I trusted you...

I'm about to lose my mind... My phone (Samsung Galaxy S6 Edge) had been trying to make me update the system for like 2-3 weeks so I finally did it last week...well first of all it took longer than usual, second of all the whole appearance changed...it looks terrible, I HATE the top row (sound/wifi/data/bluetooth thingy), notifications look awful and the app icons I had downloaded long time ago don't work...like they don't show if I've gotten a msg so I had to delete them and use the normal ones... Yes, I can get used to the appearance etc BUT the worst thing... My phone is super slow, it crashes all the time and my battery runs like two times faster it did before the update... And no it's not just my phone, also my best friend said the exact same thing about her phone... So it's about the android update... I'm so pissed and I don't know what to do... I feel like throwing my phone to a wall many times a day... I've been a "Samsung girl" for years, even my first phone was Samsung, so now I feel betrayed... Hopefully they'll fix it soon because it's freaking ANNOYING.

Maybe next time something more positive 😅

- KK

I DID IT! 🎓

Sivistys ei ole vain tietoa, sivistys 

ei ole vain taitoa. 

Helsingin luonnontiedelukiossa 

sivistys on älyllistä uteliaisuutta, 

eettistä tajua, kykyä nähdä olennaista 

ja tahtoa toimia. #kerranHelluainaHellu

(My high school's (Hellu) motto)

Finally! I graduated from high school 🎓❤ got my white cap and couldn't be happier. Now I can relax and not think about school for months (before I start to study for the med school exam in Autumn). Yesterday was just an amazing day and I'm so grateful for my friends, family, relatives and my boyfriend that they made my day perfect 💖 I feel blessed to be surrounded by all these wonderful people and also about the quality of education I have access to because I live in Finland 🇫🇮♡ I also feel super blessed by the gifts I receive from everyone 💖

What I really love about my graduation is that I got to graduate on my dad's birthday but also in the year that the Independent Finland turns 100 ♡ I'm really patriotic person and this just made my day. I didn't even plan it but even tho I usually wear pink or black etc, my dress was navy blue with white lace aka the colours of the Finnish flag 🇫🇮

It's still hard to realise that I've graduated but I'm sure it will sink in during the next few months or so 🙈 Now just working till the 30th of June and then a couple months of summer holiday ♡

I hope you all have a great day and that you stay tuned for my next post 😉💋

P.S. more pics (taken by professional photographer) coming later, when I get them.

-KK

Life's good

Okay,

so yesterday was the med school exam (applying to it, super hard, only like 7% get in). I only read my own notes (Side note: my notes were about 350-400 pages) the day before since this year I wasn't trying to get in yet. The exam wasn't actually that bad. I mean yeah the physics questions were super hard bc I'm not that good at it + I haven't studied physics for months. The chemistry parts were hard too but I still could answer to some but the biology, like damn I could answer (not fully but still) to every question and might even get full points from one 👌🙈 I just really wasn't happy about the calculator that they now only approve... 

First of all it was hard to find one that was in their list because they were almost all gone already from everywhere. And second of all I mean look at it! (Pic down below) it's so tiny. You can only use symbols "+/-/÷/×/√" with it like cmoon...try to count pH things in chemistry with that.... Also you can only fit 8 symbols on the screen at a time... Like ummm it's the 21st century now ..but yeah I still managed with it so 🙈

After that I just went to eat with my friend and damn the food was good 👌 we had onion rings for starters and burgers for main course 🙈 (pics down below)

Today was an exciting day bc I started at my work. It was kinda scary and really tiring and hard at first but it got easier during the day and I'm sure I'll be good in no time ✌ Today also came the results from my matriculation examination and now I can finally officially say that I'm graduating from high school on the 3rd of June ❤ yaaaas 💁

I was a bit disappointed in my results but well those are hard and I still did pretty well 🙈 Now I can enjoy of not studying until September/October (then I will start studying for next yrs med school exam).

So yeah like the title says, life is pretty good and hopefully it will stay that way 😊

Tmrw again work which means I gotta get up (too) early but then starts weekend ❤

Hope you are all having a good day 💋

- KK

Mother's Day

Mother's day was pretty nice even tho I had slept only a few hours and had to do a lot of stuff during the day. I feel like we should celebrate moms 365 days a year tho 🙈 I love my mom more than words could ever describe 💖 she is my role model and my rock. I know I can always tell her everything and that she will always help me. I hope that someday I could be even half of the woman and a mother she is 💖

I could go on and on but maybe I'll just continue with on how the day went/what I did etc.

Mother's day menu:
- asparagus with ham and parmesan
- Beef fillet steak with pepper-cream sauce, grilled onions, grilled eggplant with feta and sage, Hasselbacka's potatoes and salad
- Rubarb cheese cake with roasted white chocolate (by my sister)

Besides good food and good company, I  saw this rabbit while I was picking flowers for my mom and grandma 🙈🐰 It came really close because I didn't move at all since I noticed it. It was so cute 🙈 I wish I would've gotten better photos but like I said I tried to stay still + I only had my phone with me and not my camera...

I know this was a pretty short post but I mean it was only about one day 🙈 oh and I also got a job so maybe more about that later here 😉 see you soon 💋

- KK