Age crisis 😅

It's now been a week since I turned 19 (22/8) and I honestly don't know what to think about that 😅 I'm kinda having like an age crisis tbh. I feel like I just turned 18 and now I'm already a year older... And no 19 isn't old but I just feel like now each year I should be more adult-like etc and I'm NOT ready 🙈

I just graduated from high school and now this year, like I've already said earlier, I'm studying so that maybe I would get into med school someday (fingers crossed 🙈). I still live at home and will be living here at least until I get into a university so right now it just feels like my life is kinda standing still. I'm not going anywhere, turning 19 didn't bring anything new into my life and I'm still learning to become an adult and do adult kinda stuff while still holding on to my last year of being a teenager 🙈😢

Becoming an adult (or well turning 18 and after that) isn't that easy. It's like someone taking your training wheels off without your permission and all of a sudden you're supposed to make the important phone calls yourself, handle your bank account things and making all kinds of decisions all by yourself. I mean don't get me wrong I like being able to do stuff myself too like for example driving a car but before you turn 18, you have no Idea of all the responsibilities and duties the life is about to throw at you. So yes sometimes I do think about how easy life would be if I was still like a 5-year-old or sth but then again I'm happy and grateful about all the things and experiences I've had in these past 19 years. They have made me who I am today.

- KK

Pray for Barcelona 🇪🇸

This was not a good night... When I heard that one of my favourite cities had been attacked, I was shocked, devastated and confused at the same time. What made this all even more weird was that I had actually earlier today watched some CNN's etc's documents about these terrorists from youtube. Like what makes them do things like this, about the women there, the child recruits and so on. I'm stunned how many people still join them every year from Europe, USA, Australia etc and how easily their are brainwashed into their system.

I'm really sad that the world we live in, has to be this scary, so unpredictable and unsafe. It obviously makes me scared even tho you shouldn't let power to the fear because that's exactly what the terrorists want. All these attacks have been brutal, horrible and unforgivable but at the same time it's the fear and the anxiety that makes us even more vulnerable.

Now when it comes to the Barcelona's attack, I'm not trying to blame anyone else but the terrorists of this attack, but how is it possible that La Rambla which is a big, wide road for walkers didn't have any protection? Like those big stone fences or anything. It was just a matter of time for this to happen since these kind of attacks (truck/van) have been going on in Europe and also because La Rambla is like the perfect target for it because it's always full of people. The van got to drive for over half a kilometer before stopping because there's nothing that would've stopped it.
But like I said, it's ofc the terrorist's fault that this even happened in the first place.

UPDATE: there was also another terrorist attack later last night... Audi A3 drove to the crowd in Cabrils... 6 civils got injured and one police. Police shot 4 suspects and injured one, who died later from his injuries. Police also said that the suspects had bomb vests on them...

This is absolutely terrible and devastating... I hope that all the injured people get better soon and everyone who needs any kind of help gets it.

I just want to send my condolences for all the victims' loved ones and for Barcelona ❤ We love you and support you ❤🇪🇸

- KK

(Pic's source: ://www.hola.com/actualidad/2017081798302/redes-sociales-pray-for-barcelona/ )

Copenhagen 🇩🇰

So I went on a weekend trip with my family last weekend to Copenhagen 🇩🇰 I've always wanted to visit Denmark but I guess I expected too much. I mean don't get me wrong, Copenhagen was beautiful with all its old buildings, the little mermaid statue, Nyhavn and Tivoli but all the streets were under construction because they are building a metro there.

Also, what's with the driving? Everyone was driving like in Middle East or sth...no one used the blinker, they just hunked and showed with the hand to go first. It was scary. And then the bikes... Everyone were riding their bikes, without a helmet btw, and you had to be careful not to get hit. The bikers had better roads than the walkers... It also isn't that beautiful when all streets are full of parked bikes so you barely have space to walk on the sidewalks. I mean yes it's better for the environment but still, I'm happy that I don't have to live there.

Besides all these things it was still worth visiting for and I had a fun trip even tho I got sick on the second day...thanks to my sister. I loved the Nyhavn harbor and the Field's (Scandinavia's biggest mall) wasn't that bad either even tho I don't really like shopping 🙈

I thinl that's all I have for you today 😜 now some pics 💋

- KK

Where did the summer go?

Okay, so yes I do realise it's been too long since my last post but this time I've really been busy 🙈 I feel like the June just flew by, like it lasted only 2 weeks.

I had my Chilean host sister here and I feel like I had sth pretty much everyday. We went to Helsinki center, to Suomenlinna (an old military island in front of Helsinki), to Heureka (science place with exhibitions, fun gadgets, planetarium etc), to my mom's uncle's summer cottage (went swimming to the lake, was just +18°C 😅), to Porvoo (a city about 45min drive from Helsinki, also where my bae is from ♡), to Stockholm Sweden etc . So for a girl who is an introvert, who loves being alone and just chilling at home instead of going out to bars or well anywhere especially in the evenings (yes, we do exist), it was quite a challenge. I feel like I've really gotten the fear of social situations... I'm like the black sheep of the family aince my parents and sister are like super social and out going 🙈.

What also really sucked was the poor weather we had... We've had so bad summers now for the 2 or 3 summers in a row. Last week was the best but even then the temperature didn't rise above like +24°C and it's just been raining a lot 👎. Today was a pretty good weather when I was in Helsinki with my friend but tmrw it will rain again... The global warming is really a thing and we should really do our best to even slow it down.

So what's been going on in my love life? Well, things are pretty good but my boyfriend actually now has pneumonia...and I'm just hoping that I won't get it since I've spent 2 nights with him during this time and as a kissing addict I've ofc also kissed him 💋🙈. So now, fingers crossed 😅 he now has the antibiotics so hopefully his pneumonia won't be contagious anymore since I would ofc really want to spend time with him more now while he has the permission to be away from army.

I think that's pretty much what's been happening in my life recently. Now just chilling the for a couple of weeks before starting the journey of studying to med school..😅🙈 it's so weird that for the first time in 12 years I DON'T have to go to school next week ♡👍

See you next time 😉

Also don't forget to follow me on instagram @katjusa1 💋

- KK